It's been six weeks and two days. I now know the physical cause.
Cardiopulmonary arrest due to probable cardiac arrythmia.
I was wrong, it doesn't really help to know. It doesn't help to know that there's nothing I could have done, even if I had been right there beside her. It doesn't help to know that she died without suffering. Nothing helps.
Some day you will find peace in the knowledge that she didn't suffer. It will be important to you, Mark, when the pain you feel now is not as overwhelming, as consuming. I am sure of this.
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