Someone just called and asked for Carmen. I told them she passed away five years ago. Then the floodgates opened. She listened to me struggle to talk and told me she was sorry. Me too.
So very much of my life has changed. I was blessed to find love again. I'm eternally grateful for Heather and her love and kindness. The pain is no longer constant. I have more good days than bad by far. I've been able to talk about Carmen and her death without breaking down then a phone call from a complete stranger turns me into a slobbering mess. They say that you never "get over" it that you just "carry on" somehow. They're right. I've been blessed that I've not had to carry on by myself for most of the last five plus years.